Greetings. I havent updated this blog well over a year and a half. Mainly because I haven’t much to say about myself in a public forum like this that you would find interesting nor informative.
I have learned allot about the internet and narcissism in the last year and a half. And I have learned that I do not need to be on peoples minds, or remembered during their day to day activities online. I have come to despise the idea of Facebook status updates, and as such I have not update my facebook status in well over 2 months. I am considering deleting my account altogether because I believe that it is becoming a tool of divisiveness and pride. We become slaves to our online image. We post pictures of our lives and children. We talk about our day to day activities and our every thought becomes plastered across the eyes of those who are competing and craving to also be scene, heard, envied, coveted, and admired.
For an entire week before I stopped updating my status, I would type my thoughts into that little box and then read what I had written and ask myself WHY?
Why do people need to know this?
Why do I want them to see it?
What feelings am I attempting to bring out in them?
Is this beneficial?
Is this narcissistic?
Is this a projection of the image that I desire that people have of me?
The answer to all of these questions was almost always and affirmation of my depravity, and so, with great struggle, I emptied the little white box of it’s little black text and moved on. Keeping my thoughts to myself, my God, and my Wife.
Why do people need to know my opinion on politics, or on current theological debates, or on… anything really? The answer is, they don’t.
I make a living by teaching people about the word of God, what I believe God is doing in our midst, leading them in that direction, and by writing songs to sing while we do all of this.
There is no place for ME in all of this.
I may never regularly update this blog again, I may never update my facebook status again, but who knows! And the last thing that I want is for this post to somehow become a way to say “look at me, I’m enlightened!”. Please do not, for I’m not.
I will leave this blog up because it is a history of mine. Many of the things that I have written about have changed in me, and I do not believe the same way that I did 2 years ago. I trust and pray that every 2 years I will be able to say that.
I have another blog that I am writing, it is not about my life, or my music. It is about other subjects altogether. If you find it, feel free to read it.
Grace and Peace!
I hear what you’re saying about narcissism & agree that it’s important to remember that modern technology is our servant, not our master. As a brother in Christ on the other side of the world, I really value your music and am always interested in hearing your point of view as we struggle to bring the goodness of God to post-modern people (sounds kind of cliche, but I hope you get what I mean). You help me think things through. So I guess I’ll start seraching for your new blog…
Grace & peace right back at ya brother!